Any one seen the help yet?

So a friend and I went to see the help the other day. There was a line that is stuck in my head....

"You is kind. You is smart. You is important."

How nice would it be to be able to say this to someone (except in a grammatically correct way of course!)? How much better would it make people feel about themselves? Could we change the way little girls and boys feel about themselves? What if we told ourselves this every morning when we wake up and every night when we lay down, would we feel better about ourselves?

Here's a toast to all of us who are kind, smart and important.

Thinkin again

I stopped and thought today about where I am in life. All I wanted to be in life was to be a wife and a mommy. But tonight as we sat down for dinner we talked about my friends and how they are doing. It's weird to think about how most of my friends are married, have kids, or are engaged, or a combo of the three things. As much as I would like to have someone to sleep next to at night, or someone to hold me when I cry, I know where I am is where I am meant to be. I mean how many of those friends that are married, have kids or are engaged have their degree in something. How many of them are able to better themselves, and say that they have a meaningful career that they could work to support themselves if need be? I may not have everything I wanted in life, but I believe I will one day. In the same way, I wouldn't change anything about where I am now for that lifestyle.

Dont get me wrong, I am not saying I don't want to date or get to be a wife eventually, but I think I am finally breaking out of the Geneva mentality that has been put into my brain about having to get married now.

Anywho. I start training for my new job tomorrow and I am so excited. I feel like even if im not getting paid much more right now I feel like it's a step up. I want to be in a place where I am half way respected, and can actually be in a good mood when I leave. I am  also excited to start waitressing again soon. It's my way of working with people and earning a few extra bucks. Sounds dumb, but I enjoy it!

So a toast! To my eyes opening and my brain becoming wiser.

A year

I know we have all heard the rent song about how to measure a year, but really, think about it. How much of a year do we waste? If I could go back to one year ago there is so much I would change. I would have taken that trip, enjoyed school more, enjoyed the little moments more. I miss my friends and I miss living with my best friend and laughing all the time. I miss who I was, and the lack of stress I had. I miss working at fun jobs. I miss who I was always with. I miss being respected and feeling good.

I have learned a lot this year. I've learned to smile through the tears, and laugh through the hurt. I've learned  that I am better and smarter than I thought. I learned that I don't deserve to get treated like dirt and walked on.  I learned that I give too much to others and not enough to me.

But through all the smiles and the tears this year and all that I have been through I would do it all again. This is the first year that I have ever said that with. I didn't have the best year, or the typical 21st birthday, and I went through some rough times, but if I could take what I've learned this year back a whole year, I'd be happy.

Here's a toast to the first year I have ever wanted to do again.