A year

I know we have all heard the rent song about how to measure a year, but really, think about it. How much of a year do we waste? If I could go back to one year ago there is so much I would change. I would have taken that trip, enjoyed school more, enjoyed the little moments more. I miss my friends and I miss living with my best friend and laughing all the time. I miss who I was, and the lack of stress I had. I miss working at fun jobs. I miss who I was always with. I miss being respected and feeling good.

I have learned a lot this year. I've learned to smile through the tears, and laugh through the hurt. I've learned  that I am better and smarter than I thought. I learned that I don't deserve to get treated like dirt and walked on.  I learned that I give too much to others and not enough to me.

But through all the smiles and the tears this year and all that I have been through I would do it all again. This is the first year that I have ever said that with. I didn't have the best year, or the typical 21st birthday, and I went through some rough times, but if I could take what I've learned this year back a whole year, I'd be happy.

Here's a toast to the first year I have ever wanted to do again.