Thinkin again

I stopped and thought today about where I am in life. All I wanted to be in life was to be a wife and a mommy. But tonight as we sat down for dinner we talked about my friends and how they are doing. It's weird to think about how most of my friends are married, have kids, or are engaged, or a combo of the three things. As much as I would like to have someone to sleep next to at night, or someone to hold me when I cry, I know where I am is where I am meant to be. I mean how many of those friends that are married, have kids or are engaged have their degree in something. How many of them are able to better themselves, and say that they have a meaningful career that they could work to support themselves if need be? I may not have everything I wanted in life, but I believe I will one day. In the same way, I wouldn't change anything about where I am now for that lifestyle.

Dont get me wrong, I am not saying I don't want to date or get to be a wife eventually, but I think I am finally breaking out of the Geneva mentality that has been put into my brain about having to get married now.

Anywho. I start training for my new job tomorrow and I am so excited. I feel like even if im not getting paid much more right now I feel like it's a step up. I want to be in a place where I am half way respected, and can actually be in a good mood when I leave. I am  also excited to start waitressing again soon. It's my way of working with people and earning a few extra bucks. Sounds dumb, but I enjoy it!

So a toast! To my eyes opening and my brain becoming wiser.