Welcome to 2011

So it's 2011...I felt better yesterday. haha. I really didn't do much today. I cleaned up a little. I'm laying here listening to Alanis Morissette and thinking. I got a big thing off my chest today that has bothering me, and I'm not sure how to feel about it. It's so funny but the hardest part of being single for me is that I have no one to cuddle up with, but it's life, and I'm living it. 


I feel like I need to write a poem like I used to all the time, but I don't know which thought in my head to start with first, so i'm thinking maybe I should create a drawing, but it would probably be complete scribble. Maybe in a few I will. Right now I am trying to figure out where I am in this world and what I am going to do with all of the gifts I've been given. Maybe once work starts and stuff settles I'll volunteer somewhere, but as for now I just don't think its feasible.


So I'm thinking, do I go to the bar with a friend and his friends and meet new people, or do I stay here and just continue to think about stuff? haha. Do I continue to let my mind run in circles until I fall asleep? 


Remember those days when we only had to worry about what kind of sandwich was in your lunch? Or what teacher you had for homeroom? The days when you couldn't wait to be an adult. What were we thinking? Being an adult isn't all its cracked up to be. Yea, you can sign papers for yourself, thats about it. There is still always going to be someone telling you what to do, where to go, and when to do it. There is just more responsibility. 


So here's the toast today: Here's to you life. I am thankful to have you, but you are the hardest thing in this world some days.